A few months ago I felt that I wanted to date and look for eligible bachelor's and true love. My Mom bought me a dating package through It's Just Lunch- "a dating service for busy professionals". Since I was trying to be open and more social for 2011, I said sure....why not? All I have to do is meet guys at a restaurant and if we hit it off we can exchange numbers, if not....no problem.
I was so nervous with Date #1- I had no idea what to expect and I hadn't dated anyone decent before so I was questioning myself and wasn't sure I was what the guy would want, etc. Well, this guy reminded me of Christian Bale from American Psycho- really weird- not as good looking- just the weird part lol. I gave him my number but didn't pursue anything and didn't answer when he called. Date #2 was a disaster, the guy was unattractive, uninteresting and the service at the restaurant was horrible. Date #3 was too stuffy, I gave the waiter my number though, but he never called. Date #4 was actually decent but he was too short and he had children. I probably would have gone on more dates with him but he never called. Date #5was also decent. We exchanged numbers and I was to go on a second date with him; He wanted to take me to an arena football game, dinner and a party with his friends- um, hello? too much for a second date! I asked to reschedule because I had other committments that weekend with racing. He made some "poor me" comment to try to get me to change my mind comment and I was totally turned off....next......Date #6 talked and talked and talked- my eyes were cross by the time the date was over. Date #7 was horrible- repeat of Date #2. Date #8 was weird and seemed a bit off. I also dated another guy around this time but it just didn't feel right for many reasons. Finally I gave my phone number to a really gorgeous, nice guy that I had a crush on for months. It was embarassing but I was tired of not going anywhere and thought, why not. So I gave him my number in a non threatening way lol.....and he never called. Oh well.
After all of this dating I decided I don't want to date. I have no fears of being hurt or rejected- one guy felt this was part of my "problem". Which drove me crazy because it's ridiculously wrong and everything I've said to him was completely misinterrupted. I simply don't want to date. I don't want a relationship.... I don't want to share my house, my bed, my toothpaste. I don't want to date....I don't like going out and meeting strangers and then sitting through a 2 hour dinner....I 'd rather be training or reading or doing whatever I want because I can. I want no strings. I want to be able to go do something without having to check in or check a schedule. I want to travel when I want and just worry about myself. I don't want children at this point in my life. I want to give my all to myself and to things I am passionate about. Maybe when I find that someone special, my feelings will change...but until then...then answer is no, unless of course you are Indiana Jones or that guy from Hawaii Five-0 lol- then I will totally reconsider and give it a try!
Dear Prince Charming,
Rain check please? I'm just not interested right now.
A Blue Bird, in Native American, symbolizes Happiness. I also like how this bird and her wings are spread- ready to fly and be free. I'm happily ready to fly and be free ....