Blue's UnBashful Blog: 907 Days Later , I'm Not Ready to Make Nice

Dixie Chicks I'm Not Ready to Make Nice

The link above will send you to the music video for "I'm Not Ready to Make Nice" by the Dixie Chicks.
"Shut up and sing or your life will be over" was more like 'Shut up and agree ( "listen here missy ")or your life will be over' . And 907 days ago...Tuesday November 26, 2013, I remember that entire day from every meeting, every step forward, and evening happenings. I had a great day, even posted so on facebook so of course it was true. I went to Walmart with my sister to get a turkey for thanksgiving and on the way home received a call from a friend at 10pm about a Fox8 news story that featured yours truly. I was brought to my knees, every negative emotion running through my mind hit me at once like a ton of bricks dropped from above and immediately took my breath away, like some coward sucker punched me in the stomach. And that is indeed what happened. Cowards. Gutless, deflecting from their own flaws, ignorant, despicable, grasping for air to keep themselves from drowning in their self made corrupt way cowards . I screamed, screeched, and emptied cries of pain, disbelief, anger, and more anger. I was violated by those in power, by those wearing badges. It was a violation that topped all previous violations and traumas, a violation that rocked my core like none before. And 907 days later, the investigation continues because each question and each unveiled direction created a domino effect leading to more connections, corruption, and more disbelief. And 907 days later I know who, where, when, what, and why. And 907 days later, I'm not ready to make nice. This song (I'm not Ready to Make Nice) by the Dixie Chicks, every single word, resonates with me in a way that I didn't think would ever be possible when I first heard it so many years ago, when I was an innocent looking up to those above me, relying on their decisions and actions to keep me safe and to keep me secure. Years ago when my eyes were big and my faith was strong, when I believed that good always wins and heroes did no wrong. This song is a response to political character defamation an bullying that was lashed upon the Chicks years ago for getting political (This doesn't mean I agree with their politics) and 907 days ago there was a personal attack on me in retaliation for doing what was best and an attempt to discredit the knowledge I had and the continued efforts I made and will continue to make towards exposing political corruption. #pillgate #justsaynotopolitics #believeloveunderstandempower #notreadytomakenice #imstillmadashell

Not Ready to Make Nice

By Dixie Chicks

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting

I'm through with doubt
There's nothing left for me to figure out
I've paid a price, and I'll keep paying

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell, and I don't have time
To go 'round and 'round and 'round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

I know you said
Can't you just get over it?
It turned my whole world around
And I kinda like it

I made my bed, and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets, and I don't mind saying
It's a sad, sad story
When a mother will teach her daughter
That she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world
Can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter
Saying that I better
Shut up and sing
Or my life will be over?