Grandmas

This year I lost both of my Grandmas.  Losing people who are so supportive, unconditionally loving, and caring can wreck havoc on one's life.  I have no grandparents left and it leaves me sad but I know that they are watching over me.  I wrote a poem about the loss.  I didn't have the courage to read it at either memorial services because I couldn't speak without crying. 

In Your Memory, I Will Live Free

I had a dream...and you were there.  

I asked you why did you leave?

I asked for you to watch over me and to give me the strength that I need

I'd give anything for a conversation but magic only occurs only in dreams

so please please

give me the strength that I need

watch over me and my family

I love you so and I will never forget

I'm sorry for the times that I regret

just please please

give me the strength that I need

and watch over me and my family

I now have some strong angels indeed

and all of your memories I will keep

so when the demons I feel are near

and when my prayers are loud and clear

Just please please

give me the strength that I need

and watch over me and my family

the laughs, the memories, the genes, oh our crazy but strong family tree

through you I learned how to persevere

I'm honored and I'm proud to carry your soul with me

just please please

give me the strength that I need

and watch over me and my family

when times get tough and I am in need

I know that within I can seek

and in me, you are here, you are in my memory, and you are free

just please please

give me the strength that I need

and watch over me and my family

Hold my hand so that when it's my time to be free

fear, negativity, and spite are out of me

so that I can be as strong as your memory

until then in your memory I promise to live fee